It happened again.
It takes a few hours to get up and go in the morning. Waking up with a racing heart , fuzzy thinking , migraines , and numbness will slow a person down. I refrain from speaking when my tongue & face become tingly-tight due to the fear of slurring . I can not feel emotionally when these attacks happen. Waiting it out by playing games on my phone , coloring in my dairy, or doing breathing exercises is all I can do until the anxiety passes.
When someone tries to give me any physical embrace I freeze . Instant awkwardness . I have to remind myself to breathe again.
The attacks come and go as they please.
” Just get over it .”
” Tough it out. ”
These statements do not work or even help in my brokenness . Any mental pressure or a sense of being rushed can make the symptoms much worse. I have to take my time in everything to avoid overload ( shutdown ). I have to learn to remember to breathe .
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